Many of you know how close I am to my Mother. I’m secretly glad she had us kids when she was so young (my Mom was 20 when I was born), because that means she’ll be with us longer! Hopefully forever!
My mother has so much energy it’s hard to contribute to her. When I’m at her house and she needs something upstairs, for example, I’ll start getting up to fetch it for her and she’ll bounce out of her chair and say “I need the exercise!”. Growing up, she would wake us up with freshly made carrot juice in the summer after she’d been up at 5:00 am pulling them out of our garden and of course everything was made from scratch.
Terreeia and I took my Mom to an all-inclusive resort in Los Cabo this winter, she has never been on a vacation where food was simply delivered to your table or your lounge chair by the pool! She felt very spoiled which was our intention! At one point, she said “I don’t feel like I deserve this” which is a comment I’ve heard her say before. It was then when I realized that we all have an insecurity thats always running in the background. I asked Terreeia what hers is, she said ‘I don’t belong’.
Mine is ‘People don’t like me’. Whenever I meet someone new, that is automatically right there for me. I guess it’s because I can be quite blunt and straightforward which is a trait I know many of you thankfully appreciate about me in my musings about subway tile and undertones 😉 ;).
And I am not that good at small talk. When I call people I have to remember to say “How are you?” instead of jumping straight to the point.
Since writing this blog, my world has changed a little. When you meet me, because you’ve already been reading this blog, I’ve already made it with you, you already get me, and you either like (or don’t like) my straightforward personality and direct point of view. We’re friends already, and it’s a beautiful thing.
So out there in the virtual world, I have lots of friends, but at home, not as many.
Before I met Terreeia, I was alone a lot, and I was really tortured that I was not doing what I loved to do, my self expression was just not out in the world yet. I didn’t start writing this blog until I was 40, until then I was secretly convinced that if I was ever going to own a home or have the money to do all the things I wanted to do, I would have to marry it first.
My Mom’s unconditional love and support has kept me going through the years when I felt like a failure because I was mostly convinced that the fact that I didn’t have an interior design degree held me back and of course it didn’t help that I kept getting fired. My Mom has always been there for me anytime I called in an upset, sometimes it was late at night, sometimes it was early in the morning, she has never once been annoyed that I woke her up.
Hellen & Maria
Through all my ups and downs especially when I was struggling to create my career in the creative world, my Mom has always been there for me, encouraging me and telling me I have a gift and that I was someone special. I have my Mom’s big heart and compassionate nature, and I’m so grateful that I’m lucky enough to call her my best friend.
I love you so much Mom! I am who I am because of your unconditional love and support!
Thanks to all the Mom’s out there who read my blog and I wish you all a wonderful Mother’s Day weekend!!
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